So...you hold out forever and a day and you decide there is just no guy I would want to spend more than just eating dinner with. You think I am going to stay celibate for the rest of my life because their is no guy that you are even remotely attracted to wholly. Then you think maybe, just maybe so and so could substitute if I just don't have to hang around long. Just in and out. Then grab a mocha...alone...so the mocha can be savored. Not the other! Nothing to have savored there. So that's how it goes. For awhile. That's how it goes. Then...when you least expect it. It hits you! Lust and desire just jumps all over you and hits you! You really figure since your ground control has been so detached you know what...just take him to bed and finally let your hair down for a moment. Then get dressed, throw your hair back up and go savour your mocha...

...but the mocha doesn't taste as good as it did before. The brew seems to be lacking in something. Damn...you realize your apathy and defenses have been broken. Crap! But you lie, to yourself. No it's definitely not happening. I am so not doing this. I am not into this. It was just a thing. Your head is 'right on!!!!' but your heart. It knows different.

So...In reality when you talk to your friend who knows you well it goes a little something like this:


Me:

I was wondering why you slipped out. Do you feel better? Yes, I saw her. I was so glad she came. So…no mind meld??? Wow, you really are a Jedi with the Force! I stand in awe! (insert name here)!
This waiting is annoying. I haven’t called. I haven’t emailed. Neither has he! Ahhhh!! I know this is what I said I wanted and agreed to but dog gone it this is annoying. I am not quite sure what to do with someone not chasing.Ahh%^&*
This is Much more difficult than I thought. Goodness I thought this was going to be sooo simple. Just hey how are you and that’s it. Geesh!!! I hate this girly emotional crap that is trying to come to light!!!


Friend:

You should admit to yourself that you like this guy... Don't you like him?? I think you like him more than you'll admit. You've got a crush on your booty call.... That's your problem.

You've already talked waaaaayyy too much to this guy and now you actually like him.

Which, he seems likable and God knows you're likable so it's not surprising that the two of you are starting to like each other not to mention the fact that the two of had amazing sex which makes him all the more desirable.... you're falling for this guy.


Get a hold of yourself!!! I thought he was just supposed to be for sex!!??

You need to come back to what this was supposed to be in the first place. Just sex. Keep reminding yourself that..... He's not for mind control --- just sex.

Me:

Okay…good point. So that’s what you have to do. It was just…okay I can handle this. You know what maybe it wouldn’t feel so bad if I thought maybe he had this weird feeling too. I just have this in my head that he is such a guy so I am the only one with this weird feeling of the girly crap! Ahh!! Okay..so just keep reminding myself it is just #$^. I can do this. Thanks for the perspective.
I knew I could count on my Virgo to bring me back to the ground!
Just keep me there okay.

Friend:

What you're feeling isn't "girly" it's called "infatuation". You like him. He meets all your needs plus some in bed (which is a huge turn on for you). And I'm pretty sure you do the same for him (which is a huge turn on for him) and now he's trying to figure out who the heck you are and where you came from and you're trying to convince yourself that you can have great sex and a non-commited relationship which for you - is apparently impossible .
You should've never answered that phone the first time he called you. hmm mm hmm.... Looks like we're both, "Past the point of no return.... " which is a song from Phantom of the Opera...


Yes it went just like that.