Wrap me up, tightly, in something confined. Don't look at me, keep your gaze far from mine.
Love me I scream
Love me I beg
I plea
I cry
You never see it...nor do I.
The tears that have all but dried
But today
Today.
One single tear strolled down my cheek
One single, wet lone tear that gave redicence my heart is mending.
My heart is slowly stitching together.
My heart can feel deeply.
But....
But with that terror I know then it can break deeply.
Pain and sadness are endured. I do not know if that I was ready for.
I now feel vulnerable.
Open
Breakable
Easy to read and easy to rip into two
Think I am beautiful
I want you to think I am lovelier then any others you lay eyes on.
But how can you? How can you when I am not perfect.
I am flawed.
My body holds scars
Imperfections
It’s not perfect. It never will be. How can you?
My cold exterior breaking.
Melting.
The walls falling
Crumbling
Damn
Feeling the insecurities so readily opened that I have not had to feel.
Feel as though I cannot compare.
Feel as though I will never be beautiful enough
Feel as though Love can never truly hold me.
I want to feel it, I want to feel what you say flow through me and cover me whole and I do.
For moments I truly do.
But alone, I cannot hold it.
Alone I cannot wrap my head around…
You love me.
Me?
You love….
Me?
You love me.
I am scared. I am terrified.
I cannot be broken.
I cannot fall.
Trying not to close off and push you away, but to open and let you in.
And I am
I am open
Vulnerable
You are there...
You have pushed past the gates and are now at the walls, though there are fallible gaps. There are holes so that all you have to do is reach a little further and you can crumble them all.
Crumble them
Reach for me
Draw me in
Crumble them…
And then
Then…
Then where will I be?
Then where will we be?
exposed
Love me I scream
Love me I beg
I plea.
Love…
Love me…
Lov…
How can you? I am not perfect. I am broken. I am scared and I am flawed.
