So a few things.
First I just read Moonbloggies blog about the toot and swine flu. Hope he has an even speedier recovery. Get well soon little toot!

Second, about leg hair. I tell you what. I have been looking for a way to remove hair. ugh-ummm yes hair. Not on your legs. Not on your eyebrow but the hair we all know where it is. The options were as follows:

Option 1: Shaving
I have tried shaving the bikini line and no matter what I get these bumps that last for weeks. Even if I use the no bump cream I still get them. I tried standing in the shower in very warm water to loosen the pores. I've tried loading down on the shaving cream. On even conditioner. I even tried rubbing it after with alcohol (yes ow). I tried the aftershave like a guy uses. I mean nothing worked. If I shaved there were bumps. Then you got the whole growing hair back in. So I moved on...

Option 2: Electric bikini shaver
This worked and didn't work. These things take forever not to mention you get crick in your neck from bending over for 20 minutes. Then when you shave it, you still have this like 5'0clock shadow look going on. LOL! Sometimes I got it just right but then I would sometimes get little red splotches on my skin where the electric shaver irritated it. So...

Option 3: The electric hair clippers
That's right the electric hair clippers that the beauticians use. I tried this. It worked just like the electric bikini shaver except in a fraction of the time. And um...should I add here that if you got a little distracted you could wind up with a nick that...ow does not feel so good. And still the red splotches. Moving on...

Option 4: plucking
Yes I even tried plucking with tweezers. I was getting desperate during this feat. It wasn't as bad as you think. Mind over matter right. But this takes forever and I'm not going to lie...not the most enjoyable feeling ever! In some spots it down right hurt. Over this one really quickly...

Option 5: waxing.
Every now and then I get a bright idea and decide I am going to wax. Let me just say I'd rather pluck! I get the strip on and then when I start to rip off I remember...What the hell am I thinking. This shit hurts. It's always hurt and it's not going to get any better. It's kind of like when the pain of childbirth wears off and you think 'oh it wasn't so bad.' And then there you are with contractions and labor pains and sore boobs and you've got the nurse saying 'now push through the pain your doing great' and all you want to do is kick her right through the window and then you remember 'this shit hurts'...once again too late. So this was even quicker to move on from.

Option 6: deploritory cream (NAIR)
I don't know why I never thought of and tried this before now. On Sunday I tried this and it was awesome! No red bumps. No red splotches. I got the Nair for Sensitive skin and smeared it all over the place. I had started out to just do the bikini line but I thought...let's just see how well this stuff really works and just went wild putting it all over. I then sat on a towel on the toilet lid reading a book. I waited for 12 minutes, because I lost track of time reading the book. The bottle says do not leave on more than 10minutes.Whoops. I then got into the shower. I took a wash rag and started to wipe down on the sections that had the cream. A little ughh watching the hair on the rag, but it took it all off. This stuff worked great. I just did it on Sunday....so I'll let you know how it grows back in as time goes on. But as far as now this stuff is my new bikini hair remover! I love it!!!

On another note. I am in a bit of a funk. You know what. I think I am really actually wanting to finally have someone in my life. I want someone to care about. Not just someone to play around with but I think I really want to care about someone. Hmm...that's a twist of things. You know what my thoughts really are at this moment? Here they are. This is what is circling in my head exactly as they are. Not in any order. Not a great poem or expression but this is really how it is being thought in my head. Here it goes.

Sitting in the middle of the bed.
Awake.
Alone.
Can I call shazzy?
No it's too late.
Can I call sexy?
No, I don't know what is going on between us. I don't' want to be seen as desperate of 'hooked'
Can I call my Sensei?
Nope not an option
Can I call my brother's friend who's now my friend?
I don't know...maybe it's too late. It is 1am in the morning.
Can I call my mother?
No I she wouldn't understand this feeling. It's too 'emotional'.
I'm scared.
I had a bad dream
I'm alone
I want to be held
I want to be adored.
I want to be secure

I want to roll over and hear the sound of your breath.
I want to kiss your cheeks and know that you are real and here with me.
I want to lay on your chest and feel the warmth of your body next to mine.

I want to love you.
I want to know you.
I want to giggle with you.
I want to be...
yours.