Is this more than what I should ask?

So no emotions, no attachments. That's the agreement, I'm cool with that. I just find myself ...wanting that call that says..."Hey I just wanted to hear your voice"...and then hang up. That's all you have to say. Give me that little call, let me giggle and then off the phone you go. That's not emotions, nor attachments. Maybe it could be that I said I'll call you. Geesh...now the whole when should I call as to be still casually aloof? Casually apathetic. So...I wonder when can I call. I don't want to talk much. I just want to say "hey...available such and such day? I can't get the thought of....(oooh should I really blog that?)" Then hang up. Nothing really deep. Then again they said in specifics they don't like plans. Does it take away from the whole spontaneity? Geesh, this is difficult. Or you know what... I think way to much! So what to do? What to do?

You know if it wasn't done so well. Executed so perfectly. I couldn't even have dreamed a better evening. The dancing absolutely perfect...Could have dreamed a few more things here :) That's the performer in me :)... The evening...nothing could have been better. The complete and utter comfortableness with you. Wow, how did you obtain that. No one obtains that from me. No one. Some of the lines...oh my goodness...I couldn't have written them better myself. I could have flowered a few of them though. You know just for that extra punch, LOL!Wonderful. Absolutely wonderful.

What is it??? It's definitely not like I want to fall in love. Falling in Love scares me completely to death and makes me just totally neurotic at the thought. That's not what I want from them. I want...someone to pay me attention. A phone call here and there with no more than just to say they wanted to hear from me and then hang up. Or 'I think your beautiful' and then hang up. Give me the attention every now and then to go dancing and then a little fun and then I am good. Put me back on the shelf till next time I need an attention boost. Is that so much to ask??? I don't want drama. I don't want to overtake your life. I want you to have a life of your own. I just want my little private one on one time every now and then. Like twice a month (Of course I want more than that but that's what I am willing to settle for) and 1 call a week. pick a Monday or a Tuesday and that is it. It has nothing to with esteem issues. It's really all I can commit to at this moment. All I am able to commit to. All I am willing to commit to.

So...what do you guys think of this? Is this totally unattainable? Is this totally selfish? What does this say about me? Hmmm...there's a question to ponder. So...What do you think?